if it benefits others, no harm to yourself, say it, tell it
if it benefits both parties, say it or tell it
if it benefits yourself but no harm to others, you can consider saying it or tell it
but if it causes harm to anyone don't say it and just keep quiet

WASSUP GUYS. ESPECIALLY BIANCA. -__________-  " lol. haha. :P " just because i love you. 
i have nothing to blog about.


so bye :)

I hate how things start out so well at first, then as time passes you can feel everything slowly crumble and fall apart and there's nothing you can do about it. 

first day of year eleeeveeennn. :) loooooool. the supposedly most stressful year ... WHOO? T__T stresses for IOP are slowly starting to sink in...... ohh emmm geeeeeeeeeeeeee. ahhhhhhhhhhhhh.
anyway, school has messed up our timetables... purposely putting a class instead of instep (or form or whatever other schools call it) as first period so you'll be even more screwed if you are late T________T zzzzzzzz. lol sucks for me cause my previous instep teacher use to mark me there even if i was a little late :) NOW I CAN'T DO THAT. FML got a new instep teacher as well... lool i think i made him think of me as a rebellious asian girl... LMAOOO. oh well.
had a major long assembly today. i never realised that there is a major process you have to go through to clear things up if you're late multiple times or wearing uniform incorrectly o_o hmm.. lol. i reaally should pay more attention in assemblies... zzzzz. hahah.
loooool. well it was nice seeing everyone again today tho. LMAO i swear half the people i said hi to ignored me -________- zzzz gay. loool. and found out that i can't change subjects until the EIGHTH DAY. SO GAY. lmao. sucks being impatient hahaha. T__T



OH YES. HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEARS GUUUUUUUYS :D enjoy 14 days of red packets and tons of food... and all that asian stuff LOL and remember: 恭喜發財，紅包拿來 XD okeeh? :)

when you give people too many chances, they start playing you like they have 9 lives.

OKEHHH. i'mma get back (?) into blogging about my (insert some descriptive word here) life :)  to be honest, the past few days i was thinking "oh i should blog about this" but then later i either just cbfed or forgot LMAO. gomen nasai yo m(____)m

well... ermm (testing my "grandma" memory here LMAO) lets see, on monday i went to the gold coast again ! :D hahahah. this time i went with badminton peopleeeeeeeeee. lololol. man i get bullied by them so much ahahah. not so sure if it's cause i'm vege or cause i'm the youngest. i've been nicknamed 'vegetable' just because i'm a vegetarian :( funny thing is that... another vegetarian bullies me too LOLOLOL.
at the coast, when we were waiting for some people to finish swimming and shower/get changed etc. this guy from the courier mail came up to us and said that he needed a girl with long hair to take a photo for the mail complaining about the weather. LMAO! so funny watching sandra (girl who got chosen) pose HAHAHAH. too bad her picture didn't get posted in the paper :(

okay so. it's been a while o_o lololol it's been so long i had a hard time remembering my password XD yeeeeeee... i really have nothing to blog about.. except complain about work and my major tiredness from work+ baddy. o_o my life is pretty borinnnnnnnng @___@ lols. and school's starting soon T^T sigh.
well, i played 5 hours baddddddddy todaaaaay. i shouldn't have worked last night for 8 hours -_______-;; ehhhhhhh. oh well. it was a pretty good shift cause it was quiet and i could talk to customers and take my time doing things 8D hahha. faaar. i cbf typing anymoreeeeeee. hahaha sorry bianca :P -THAT WAS AN INTENTIONAL EMOTE-

saw this on a site hahaha.

Seventeen hours of sustained wakefulness leads to a decrease in performance equivalent to a blood alcohol-level of 0.05%

and did you know your body has to have energy to relax and fall asleep? And when the body’s energy levels are too low, sleep is disturbed.
LMAO. that's me atm T___T FAAAAAAAAARRRR I'M SO TIREDDDDDDDDDDDD

It's sad when people you know become people you knew,
When you can walk right past someone like they were never a big part of your life,
How you used to be able to talk for hours
And how now, you can barely even look at them

i haven't blogged in a while. ish. lmao. ehhhhhh. i only have one shift this week so i have loooots of time hahhaa. maaaan. it's frikken dam hot today -_________- i went swimming at 9ish in the morning. holy crap it felt like it was midday already. man i need to exercise more. since i started working I'VE GOTTEN SO LAZY. I CBF EXERCISE NOW OMGG T^T zzzzzz. oh well i'll get my fitness  back.. soon enough o_o hmm i think i'm going to the coast today but only for shopping :) and again on monday for bbq? or swimming or something i dunno yet... and the monday after with baddy people XD LOL hahaha.


[10:47:24 PM] chewamelia: i know
[10:47:24 PM] chewamelia: im a genius
[10:47:26 PM] chewamelia: (y)
[10:47:38 PM] Jessy Yu: psshh
[10:47:40 PM] Jessy Yu: watevs
[10:47:44 PM] Jessy Yu: keep dreaming
[10:47:50 PM] Jessy Yu: jks
[10:47:53 PM] Jessy Yu: yer you kinda are
[10:47:56 PM] Jessy Yu: LOL

LOL sorry jessy, i just had to XD
ehh i dunno what else to blog about ... i always forget what i've done these days lmao.

talk behind my back, bitch about me, you don't even have to like me, just don't lie to me.

leeeeeewl. haaaaaaaappy new years everybody :) i was told i was gonna be working 10am till midnight on new years eve ... that's a 14 hour shift o__o lololol. BUT GUESS WHAT. I GOT TOLD TO GO HOME AT 7 LMAO but i didn't wanna go home so early haha, so i walked a bit through the crowds who were waiting to see the fireworks XD mmmm it's too depressing to watch fireworks alone LOL so when they went off.. i was like the only one walking away from them LMAO XD oh well. i caught the bus before all the people watching the fireworks caught it otherwise then it'd be soooooo packed @___@;; and i'd have to stand -3-

man, i'm so tired T__T loool. i've worked 29.5 hours in 5 days. zzzzz. then another 8 on monday, and 6 on tuesday. so 43.5hours in one week o___o LMAO. my bank account is gonna look very very happy when i get paid :) EHEHEHEHEHE.

i have been bent and broken, but - i hope - into a better shape 

i like this quote :)

ANNNNYWAAAAAY, merry christmas people ._. tho i don't really celebrate so this is like a normal day for me. and like my whole neighborhood has no christmas lights on except for one or two houses LMAOO so yea. my christmas eve lol normal day. no hardcore present shopping HAHA. i went to friend's gym in the morning and learnt how to do deadlifts o_____o LOLOLOLOL. XD it's actually pretty fun haha :P
ooh on friday, my parents were installing a new bathroom sink thing, and then the pipe leaked LOL. so the hot water stopped working :( so could only use cold water at that time. but i was out that night, an didn't get home until like 9 something. and when i decided to shower at like 10... for some reason the COLD WATER STOPPPED WORKING AS WELL ?! -___- ... ended up just pouring water on me = shower. next morning, went to friends house and showered properly LOLOL XD
ahhh i'm so bored again -________________________________- i have so much school work to do... and only 4 weeks of hols to go D:

don't promise me the moon when you can only take me to the sky.

the next day (wednesday) i had my first paying shift! XD yeeeeeer. ended up working for 4.5 hours instead of 3 hahha. and guess what, I GET PAID FOR IT TOO CHYEEEEE :P hahaha. found out that the clock we use to know when we are suppose to leave, or go for break is actually 10mins behind. LMAO. so i can be 10mins late for work :P eheheheheeeee. that day, all i did was ... cut a billion apples (not even kidding) -.- and 2 fat ass watermelons and clean stuff LMAO. (Y) so it was an easy day :P but for some reason i was really tired O___O got home at like 6 something, ate, went for a walk, did some stuff then i fell asleep at 8pm. LMAOOOO. woke up the next day at 8am o_o LOL longest sleep i've ever had for many many many many many months :) i don't remember the last time i slept for more than 10 hours LOOOL. then today, i had work again and learned how to make the juices ... omg -3- after work, i had juice bits all on my shirt, arms, neck and hair. ANNDD MY ARMS ARE SO STICKY D;< FML should bring a cloth and extra shirt next time i work -_____- hahaha. BUT OH WELL I'M GETTING PAID FOR THIS HAHAHAHAHA. XD

had a squad outing yesterdaaay x) we watched mission impossible 3 ... o.o long ass movie. LOL. it was okay i guess. @@" haha. I'M NOT REALLY THAT INTO MOVIES SO. yeeer x)
the day before, i went to hazel with the same people and we started playing UNO STACKO. holy crap it's soooo fun. it's amazing LOL. then that day, kat bought it 8D and then on our outing she brought it along and oh man. it was so good. XDDD




anyway, today's the 20th of december. THAT MEANS THE BADMINTON COMP IS ON TODAAAAAAAY. in both events i'm playing, my partner is stronger than me >___> so that means if we lose, it's my fault -_____________- sigh. PRESSSUUUUREEEE T ^ T

ahh well. I GOT MY FIRST SHIFT ON WEDNESDAY :) bad thing is that ... it's during a busy time. so FMMMMLLLLLLLLLLLLLL. T_______________________T ... i better not screw up :( ganbarimasu ! >:D

GUEEEEEEESSS WHAATS. i gots aye job x) CHYEEEEEEEEEEE EHEHEHHE.

on monndaaaaay went up north with a few friends. :) man it was fun 8D ehehee. got there just before lunch and they had a bbq and like other meat-y stuff, but because i'm vegetarian .. i ate like crap all day LOL had like 2 ice cream cones, a bottle of juice, some lolly thingys, some chips and some other stuff i think i can't really remember o.o lololol. food was ... hmm lol.
but the best thing was that we went STAND-UP PADDLING XDDDD omg that was soooooooooooooo fuuuuuuuuunnnn 8DDDDD tho no one was really standing ... HAHAHA. the only bad thing was having to carry the heavy ass board to the water and back -______- ;; man it's heavy LOL. oh and the jelly fish that were floating around in the water... though they weren't lethal ;D hahah. annnd there were supposedly some sting rays in the water ... but i didn't see any o.o hmm ... hahas ;D

during the end, sandra and i just decided to chill and push the board out a bit and ... literally do nothing and hang on o.o we were just holding onto the board, lying on it and just... yea hahahha we were so chilled ;) i'm not even kidding, it wasunbelievably relaxing. LOL we stayed like that... for i'm not even sure how long. we lost track of time XD hehehe. but eventually we decided that we should head back. cause we couldn't see anyone else at shore or in the water ... o.o LOL yea we got ditched T^T
in the beginning, we were told that even if you go out about 100m, the water will still be really shallow and that everyone should be able to still touch the floor right. when sandra and i decided to head back, and she's like tons taller than me... and she couldn't touch the floor. LOL OMG WE STARTED FREAKING OUT LIKE CRAZY HAHHAHA cause we didn't realise how far we floated out :P HAHAHAHA on the way back, a jelly fish touched my thigh :( hahha. oh WELL I'M STILL ALIVEE XD



ahh man. it was a good few hours :)

oh well. that was just gay. ruined my whole morning -_________- took them only 5 minutes as well.... lol.
this is why i like thinking that the worst will happen, so i won't get disappointed.

don't promise me the moon when you can only take me to the sky.

hrmmmmm. not much is happening these days. @@" just badminton & eating really hahhaha.
but yesterday was a fun day :) went to training in the morning. now they've set new rules down so that it's a 'stricter' style of training. which is good :D so now, training starts at 8. you get there, set up and then run 7 laps around the courts. and every 5 mins you are late, you have to run 2 more... LOL i ended up being 10 min late @@ so i had to run 11... hahahhaha. but it wasn't that bad, considering this other guy came waaay later than me and had to run 19 O___O hahahhaha normally training goes for 2 hours, then 2 hours social after that. but today they did 'intensive training' during social :O ahahha. eheheh it was fun 8D after training, we went to nandos. hmmmm... i didn't eat much LOL. not like i can there anywaaaay ... but that was my ... most proper meal for the day o_o excluding breakfast. few hours of just ... doing nothing o_o ahaha. went to a place far away for badminton again :P it was funny cause i went with people i trained with in the morning. and when i went to pay, i got it for $7. but my friend had to pay $10 LOLOL. and i'm not even a member at that club. 8D HAHHAHA. we got there at 7... and didn't leave until 10.30 <____> tho it shoulda ended at like 10 HAHAHA 8D after that, we went to maccas again lolol. it's like a tradition now, badminton then maccas XD hahahah. and i wasn't really paying attention to the time last night ... that not until my dad called me that i realised it was 11.40 ._. LMAO. oops x) mm yea i didn't get home until like midnight yesterday/this morning o.o hahahha @@" OH WELLLL. ahhhhhhh so that was my day yesterday lololol. i'm so tired atm... my calves and right thigh hurts T^T ahhaha and i'm going out todayyyy.... hopefully it won't rain -3-

you will never fully know a person 

Sometimes you just need to distance yourself from people. If they care, they’ll notice. If they don’t, you know where you stand.

pewpewpew ~ SO. dragon comp in 11 days >:D i have to fix my foot works before then T___T sighhhhhhh and only yesterday did i realise how much i rely on sliding to gain distance :(
hmm yesterday, went to another place far far away to play badminton 8D well it's not that far ... took like 15 min to drive there hahha. but yer. it was fun :) the social games went from 6.30 to 9.30 and the people i went with were really hungry afterwards so we went to maccas to eat HAHAHA. because i don't eat meat i can't eat pretty much everything there ;D hahah. so funny cause now that maccas have the smoothies... pretty much everyone i was with was tryna make me drink the smoothie or the apple pie and they all agreed to buy me something O_O hahha
and RAY CHAN. you better come next time we play badminton -3- stop staying home and playing LOL ;D 
ahh yesterday was fun :) i didn't get home until 11.30 hahahaha. XD then i dunno why .. couldn't sleep so i stayed up doing nothing.. staring out the window or something until like 2 or 3am LOLOL. and i still woke at 6.30 8D chyeeeee.

Deleting your facebook is like running away from home. Your just doing it for attention and you'll be back in an hour.

LOL.

bababaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhh. i slept in today ._. kinda. well for me it was a sleep in -3- but i didn't sleep in for as long as some other people i know hahaha. but wow. i slept in today o_o haven't slept in for like... ages and ages. i can't even remember the last time i did hahhaa.

i don't regret my past. i regret the time i wasted on the wrong people 

i checked my emails this morning :) and i've officially completed pulse. chyeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee XD bsed my way through a lot... pretty much all of the short response questions hahhaa. oh well. i'm done :D
now i can chillllll :)

hmmm... got my school report card today ._. ahhhhhhh it actually wasn't too bad :D no C's but it wasn't anything special either hahaha. oh well. i'm happy :) let's hope my parents will be too T_____T
ahh i'm too lazy to keep on blogging about something. so bye :) hahhaa.

物事は恋わる；友人は残す；生は誰のために停止しません

 3 6 9
the goose drank wine
the monkey chewed tobacco
on a streetcar line
the line broke
the monkey got choke
and they all went to heaven
in a little row boat 

stupid lyrics but reaaaaaally catchy hahah. 8D
anywayy ... i have been getting really tired really easily recently. o.o man. hahha i've had like 1 hour naps for the past 2 days :P ehehe. just then, i fell asleep ... and didn't hear the phone ring when my dad called o.o hahah. other than that, i've played quite a bit of badminton o.o and the week before the comp, i'm gonna be playing EVERY SINGLE DAY. omg that week. LOL. 1. i'll be really happy cause i have something to do ;D and it's badminton !! 2. dead from too much ahhaha and 3. bank rupt cause i need to pay for the games -_____-;;;;; sigh. LOLS. oh well, have 1 more week to prep ;DDDD  other than that, this picture pretty much sums up the rest of my life during this hols, for when i'm not out or playing badminton ;) HAHAHAHA. it's sad cause it's actually true T^T

"when you're around someone so much, for so long, they become a part of you. & When they change or go away, you don't know who you are, without them."

but now i've found myself again, and now you decide to want to start something new. you started talking to me, i reply and all is good. then you just give up and stop talking. let me ask you, what the hell is it that you want from me? remember, it was YOU who started talking to ME. go through with what you want, or just don't even bother. please, don't waste my time. 

人々は過去のことにこだわるしないでください
それはあなたが今やっていることすべてにあなたのベストを尽くすのに十分だ 

oh god. i'm so bored, 很無聊\とてもつまらない\nabo bore ako\hou mun ahh -______-
lets see. since the start of my holidays, i've went out everyday 8D cept today ...
one night when i was out, i was sitting with a friend in the city from about 5.30 till 7? and guess what... when we were just casually talking, these two asian girls just walked up to us and asked "would you like a pod?" O__O;; wth. LOL okay... they ended up trying to ask us to dinner and to their church @___@" ... lol that was such an awkward conversation ... after they left... within 5 minutes, THIS OTHER GUY who had weird clips in his hair for some reason started talking to us -_- when he was asking us questions, my friend and i were just ... making up crap. LOL.  he gave us ... beijing olympics key chains from 2008... LIKE THE HECK?! LOL. omg that convo was worse than the two asian girls. HAHAHA.

kinda funny tho, cause now that i hang out with kat so much whenever we are talking to people we don't know, they always assume that i'm a uni student -.- ... do i look that old? D: LOL. ahh man. so awkward when people realise i'm not even in year 12 ... LOL. oh well.

like i told you before, if you want something to change, it's you who has to start it. i gave you a chance yesterday, but i got rejected, AGAIN. 

 People always say “You can do better. You deserve so much more.” But sometimes when you love, you love the person for who they are despite what they have done wrong to you. That’s what love does to you. It’s not about who you deserve, it’s about who you want and who you need.

i went to play a proper game of pool for the first time in my life on saturday ... omg i've fallen in love with it. IT'S SO FUNNNNNNNNNN 8DDDDDDDD too bad the one near my house is like $18.80 for an hour -___- ... saturday was the last day of my freeeeeeedom ... so i stayed out um very late 8D hahaha. tho i really shouldn't have done that cause .. the next morning. I WAS SO TIRED. and i had badminton training until 12. T________T omg. LOL. frikken died. almost fell asleep during the breaks in social games. AHAHAHA. aiyoooooooo. OH WELL. i got home, and showered in cold water and now i'm ... pretty, not really awake. LOL i have the feeling im going to fall asleep very soon ... so i shall stop now @@"

 [7:35:38 PM] c e l ! n e: stupid flying oil
oh LOL. who knew oil could fly :P

this year has gone by so fast... LOL SCREW TYPICAL STARTINGS.
omg tho. FINISHED YEAR TEN. IN QA. OMG. 8DDDDD i must say, this year has been pretty good i guess. if you ignore the crap grades i got. met tons of new weird people *COUGH BIANCA* & had lots of fun :) had a lot of good and bad moments. hahaha. congrats to everyone who finished year 10 :) ehehe. sucks to those  in younger years who have another week or 2 of schoool. HAHAHAH.
next year... year 11. omg -3- life's gonna be so buuuusyyyyy. it is obvious that i go to qa... since i have borrowed all the books for IOP to read over the holidays ..... @__________@ & IOP isn't until the end of term 1 next year... i need a life. LOLOL.


on another note 8D, thank you to 小豬 x) for buying me the drink and holding my ... heavy bag T^T haha oh and sorry for making you walk so much in the morning @___@.
thank you to sammmmm for buying me the seaweed salad .. which my other friends thought looked like crap LOL. but anyway, it's nicee 8DDD
ANNNND. sophia. i didn't get to say a proper bye to you :( ... DON'T WORRY. I KNOW WHERE YOU LIVE 8D (without that sounding a little ... creepy) AND I HAVE YOUR BOOK. SO I'LL COME STALK YOU ON THE HOLIDAYS OKAY!? ^_________^

私にとって特別な思い出、忘れないよ。

oh god, i have a jap exam tomorrow -3- LOL 勉強しなければならないね >:D

so so so so so. FINISHHHEDD ALL MY SCHOOL EXAAAAAAAAAAAAMMSS FOR YEAR TEEENN CHYEEEEEEEEEEEEEA 8DDDDDD .. well i finished last friday ._. just cbfed turning on computer to blog. hahaha. and zoe complained that i wasn't blogging :P HAHA.


honestly, these few days.. all i've done is badminton/sleep/eat. LOL. i'm not even kidding. oh wait, with the exception of saturday <__>
friday night - went to play badminton after school, got home at like 10. then slept. next day, woke up at 6. crammed 3 chapters of words into my head for my chink school exam. exam was ... pretty weird. i thought my speaking would make my marks go down. but i got full marks for that bit o_o hahaha. i got marked down cause i forgot a stroke in a word, or forgot the word completely. LOL I NEEDA START CONCENTRATING IN MY CHINESE EXAMS HAHAHA. oh well. after that, i went to jaaap 8D found out have an exam next week -.- aiya. ahaha. then just kinda ate dinner with a friend :) SUNDAY. lol sunday was a good day 8D. woke up. went to badminton 30mins early LOL. trained for 2 hours. played social for 2 hours. ate um... this tofu thing haha. i dunno what it's called in english. but yea it was nice 8D thennnnn ate filo taro iceream LOL (Y) (Y) (Y) omg it's soooooooooooo niceee 8DDDD kinda ate a lot of dessert type food after badminton <__> hahaha. then had to pick up my friend's bro. got home. ate 2 bowls of spaghetti, a bun and 2 pieces of fruit. LOL BAD MOVE HAHAHA. cause i had to go play badminton again 30 min after that LOLOL. oh man. at badminton, kat and i play ladies doubles. and there was another ladies double team.. thing? LOL i dunno what it's called. but yea there were people we could verse. so we did. and i'm not boasting or anything. but we beat them o_o haha. then later. when there was a free court, i saw one of the girls we versed stand up. when i walked onto the court, she looked at me, then sat down. LOLOLOLOLOL. ahh that was funny. XD
i think i played a little too much badminton yesterday. cause this morning. IT WAS SO PAINFUL JUST TRYING TO GET OUT OF BED. so many parts of my body hurt T.T AND IM PLAYING BADMINTON AGAIN TOMORROWWW ;DD i'm gonna die. LOL. oh well :)
okay well... also, today i just found out that the school's PULSE program thing is kinda due sometime this year. and i haven't started. so i should get started on that aye x) sigh. LOL

oh wow. i typed quite a bit. HAHAH. sorry for making you read that 8D

you make my heart have premature ventricular contractions 

i'll write that in someone's valentines day card ;)

wow. my dad is watching drama. while i hardcore revise math. WHAT. IS. THIS. D:<

That's right, I wont rely on anyone anymore. I cant handle it anymore, I cant stop it anymore. I just held you tighter than usual alone in my room, my pulse screaming like its playing on stage. Love me please, love this blood and the meaning. I cant open myself up to anyone, I cant trust any of them. I cant forgive the lies, the tears, the love. Even loved ones in my hand scatter like petals from a flower. Burned and unable to break apart. -京 

hrmmm. haven't blogged for a while now o.o ehh. first, HAPPY BIRTHDAY KATRINAAAAAAAAA >:D though i'm a few days late <__> and to you too ZOEEEEEEEEEEEE 8D for yesterday ahaha. :)


lets seeee. the past week ... ermmmmm. had bio, chem and mando exam o.o well. bio was good i guess. chem was errmm... don't wanna comment on that x) and mando i fluked ehehhe. i actually studied. STUDIEDDD for mando -.- my god. but the words i learnt i didn't even need --" aiyee. oh well. hopefully they'll be useful in the writing exam tomorrow T.T

on fridaaaaaay, i went to play badminton in a place far far away where my mum didn't let me go ... but now that she's not hereeeee... 8D kat drove me there and we arrived at about 7ish, and played for a bit, and arrived home at 10.30. but i .. didn't want to go 'in' o.o so kat and i just chat and chat for an hour :O then my bro kinda raged ... for 'not being home' though technically i was :P hahaha. well yea. it was a good night ^^ ooh yeeer. i learnt some phrases in filo that night too ! yeeer. ;)

that night, i was texting kat ... then i kinda fell asleep haha. sorry about that x) but on saturday, i had chinese school so i had to wake up... but i forgot to turn on my alarm. BUUUT i magically woke up at 6... omg -.- man. hahha was soooo tired at chinese school. and to make it worse, the kids there are sooo LOUDDDD DDDDDD: i hate being in the same room with little kids, especially when i'm tiredddd T^T MENDOKUSAAAAAAI DDD:< far out. they just complain and complain :(

on that note, i should go study for my maths. aiyaaa i am so screweeeedddddddd x)

The feeling you get when you finally find someone who understands

because now i have no transport or someone to cook me food ... life's going to be hard :(
& on the first day of this new life ... i couldn't be bothered riding to chinese school today. HAAHA. aiyaaaaa. i productively worked for the first hour or so :3 finished about 1/3 of my bio notes and started on some math stuff ... kinda. and yea. LOL. okay fine. NOT REALLY D:< i still need to FINALISE MY ENGLISH. PRACTICE ENGLISH. PRACTICE ENGLISH SOME MORE. PRACTICE EVEN MORE ENGLISH. THEN DIE FROM PRACTICING ENGLISH. THEN REVIVE AFTER EATING ;D AND THEN PRACTICING SOME MORE! then ... FINISH CHEM NOTES. STUDY CHEM. FINISH BIO NOTES. STUDY BIO. FINISH MATH NOTES. FINISH MATH HWK I GOT FROM DUNNO HOW LONG AGO HAHHA, T^T aiya. and i need to revise mando ... and jap. aiyooooooo. T^T

i remember one day, vivian asked me about my life OUTSIDE OF SCHOOL. LOL that was the day .. i realised how much QA has like .. changed me @__@ LOL. jeezus. i had like no answer to that question but to talk about badminton. LOL man how sad am i D: hahaa.

look at me like i'm the only girl in this world

anyway... entertain yourself with this ... cloud eating picture :D

And I don't wanna see you cry
But I don't wanna be the one to tell you a lie so...

watched the play, stolen today. it was surprisingly good :3 feel sorry for all the people who missed out hahaa. ;D it was very ... real o.o ahaha probably the worst description of it but ;D i actually liked everything about it :)) which is very .. odd for me considering that me and and type of movies/media type things = we get bored of each other so easily. HAHAHA.

你想念的人是誰?

i cbf anymore ...
haven't eaten dinner for the past 5 days now ... hardly ever hungry T^T

I have so many questions I want to ask you, how are you? how's your life going for you now? All good? or it could be better? Are you friends treating you well? Are they giving you what they deserve? 

People should stop ignoring people :)

Guess what duuuudes, i got myself a ladies doubles partner :3 EHEHEH. i've got so much to learn before we get anywhere in any competitions .. but I'LL GET THERE SOON >:D we already plan to play in 2 comps x) eheheeeee.

今日はよりによかったね:)　計画心理学物を終わった！＾＾　でも、全部まだ終わらないT^T　心理学物をわった後、KATと一緒に遅い昼ごはんを食べた　Pancake Manorで食べた～とても。。。高いHAHAH. we went funhouse as well ... and amazingly kat beat me in EVERY single game .. shame -3-
とにかく、来週母は海外に行くD:　毎朝自身は物を作り始めなければならない... T^T　めんどくさいだあああ！

i've always wondered- what would my life be like if i hadn't screwed up so many times. if i still had you. what would i be like? 

aiyaaaaaaaa. yesterday. i cbfed making any proper lunch to bring to schoool. so i just left with 2 buns, an apple and a museli bar. :D ... yea it didn't really end that well <> LOL. celine ended up buying me sushi ... then after school i ate more sushi with mathias ehehe. got home ... ate like 3 bowls of food and i am STILL HUNGRY. T^T aiyaaaaaaaa. how man i gonna do 40hour famine ... D:

I hate those days when all my memories of you come rushing back because it makes me miss everything we had. 

also, i swear people like talking to me or saying stuff or something like that when im running ._. when i was running, this guy who was on the phone, i ran past him and he was like ... trying to keep up with me? O_O and he was telling me to run and crap like that. and saying to the dude on the phone, that "he's running with some fast asian lady" O_O LOLOLOLOLOLOL.

LOL okay i'm all good now <____>
今日、バドミントン練習がないT_Tそして、今家で。。。とてもつまらない　ははは両親は私に新しい机を買った　：D　この机は前のよりとても大きいけど　あははは　とにかく、　今日わたしはとても、とてもつかれたああああ　T^T　なぜわからない　。。。　＞＿＿＜　めんどくさいだ！D:<　またとにかく　＜＞　動物学クラスでたくさん絵を描いた　＠＿＿＠　

my beautiful drawing :) isn't it pro ;D LOL JOKES I WRITE SO MESSY T^T
aiye. i needa do my hwk now LOL byeee :D

We all want to be in a comfortable relationship with someone we can joke around with, knowing that they won’t take it seriously. With someone we can tell everything and anything to, knowing that they won’t change the way they think of us. Who we can trust and be completely comfortable around, not having to worry about our insecurities.

안녕하세요 모두! :D just for janet. LOL. anyway. hi everyone ^^
last night i was talking to jessy. haven't talked to her for a looooooong lonnnnng timeee. and the first thing she said to me was :

Yu said (8:25 PM)
i had NO idea you had a blog
you dont seem like the type
hahaa
just wanted to tell you i read it
and you are so freakin adorable
xD

alrighhty ! i've started a new program? thing or something that in 6 weeks, i should be able to run for one hour (A) so far so good. success on the first day HAHAHA. (Y) 5 weeks and 6 days to go ! :D

We dance, we dance
You hold the thread of my soul
You spin, you spin
And you unravel the part from the whole
We laugh, we laugh
I'm so far from where I began
I fall, I fall And i forgot that i am

私は４の新しい目標がある；D

1. 宣誓を止める　－＿＿－
2. 40 hour famine- 食べ物とコミュニケーションと家具とテクノロジーをなし　
3. katと１０キロメートルのbridge to brisbaneをする！ :D
4. これから、Cを得ない

A frightening menagerie, my emotions are
Too many and varied to number
Like creatures they crawl and they fly above
Tearing my body asunder 

昨日９時半に寝た　o__o　その後今日朝ランニングに行く　：）　この学校に行って、そこでアラムが鳴った、何もしないだった！　怖った　T^T　ｊust ran off hahaha.
じゃ。。その後中国語クラスに行った　私はクラスを変える～　先生は１目から４目までのテキストブックのクラスに行くと言ったけどaccidently put me in６目のクラス　＞＞　その先生が「第１０課を記憶」は最初の物と言った。。。WTHHH　D:　ended up going to４目のクラス：）　でもそのクラスはちょっとつまらない　ー＿＿＿＿－　中国語学校の後日本語のクラスがあった：D　今日、９５％を得たのスピーチがあった　へへへ　うれしいね～　けど。。。私の日本語は悪化になる：（　T^T　

whooo. went for a run today :) haven't ran in suchh a long timeee ! i planned to go for about 30minutes. but at last minute, my brother wanted to come along ... (not implying anything there) we ended up running laps at this stadium where pro (well i think they are) people train o_o (not implying anything here again) like the people who do districts, nationals and stuff like that for athletics. HAHAHA. while we were there, we saw these 3 guys who do speed walking? is that what it's called? i dunno but like ninja-fast walking D: man.. we ran 2 laps of the place and my bro couldn't keep up .. <_____> so we ran the last lap separately. and i tried to keep up with the ninja walkers. omg wow they are so fast O_O it's amazing. LOL i'm not even kidding. they could like walk as fast i was running .. but not tire at all. T^T

i miss you. not in some cheesy, let's hold hands and be together forever way. i just miss you. plain and simple. i miss your presence in my life. i miss you always being there for me. i miss my best friend. 

on tuesday, my friend kat (the super multi-talented person ... just incase she reads this) and I have promised to do the 10km bridge to brisbane next year! she said the average time for someone to finish was about 50minutes. so that's 5mins per kilometer... i can kinndaa do that AHHAH. but only for about 3-4km T.T still got a long way to goo ~ i need to TRAIN TRAIN TRAINNN D:<
LOL my bro called me a fitness freak today T___T

got this quote off vvn's blog :D

Don't make decisions when you're angry. Don't make promises when you're happy." -JayFluent

oh and FML. my group is trying to make me wear zoe's dress tomorrow ... LOL but the dress i WOULD HAVE worn is in the wash :D soo ! THAT MEANS NO DRESS ^^ YAYYYY

oh and i found a this girl on youtube called bon qui qui. HAHAH she's so funny XD

When you realise what kind of surprise this cruel world has installed for you, you know that the only person you can trust is you and no-one else

'tis true.

probably one of the most frequent questions that i get asked when i'm meeting new people is 'what nationality are you?' SADLY FOR ME. i have no answer to this T^T LOL... believe it or not.
so this goes to all the people who have asked me this question before and the new person i met 2 days ago haha. well ! i am... pretty mixed. my parents are both chinese-viet/malaysian but i'm born from australia. i asked my parents before and they say i'm chinese. but i don't speak any chinese fluently so.. i can't call myself that :P annd i'm not actually viet or malaysian.. more like 1/4 ahaha and can speak about 5 words in both of those languages :D sooo... yea you tell me. what nationality am i ? :)
i'm a prettty fail asian ayee

I may not be the prettiest, smartest or strongest, but at least I'm me, and don't pretend to be someone that i'm not meant to be. 

-        c e l ！n e says (8:59 PM):
*oh god my mum walked in and asked why i printed so many guy pics that don't look good
*LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOL

this was when celine was printing alfred photos, sorry bianca. but HAHAHA.

today i walked home like an asian :D used an umbrella to block the sun HAHAHA

This is my fall, my autumn, my end of year,
My desperate memory of summer
This is how i tell her who i am.
This is how far i am from the beginning
This is how i want everything, this is how i want what i was,
this is how i want her.
This is my fall, my stumble,
my descent into this darkening fling

from the Golden Tongue; The Poems of Steven Slaughter